it hurts..too much

hello! i'm back :)
and this time, guess what i'll tell you about?
yeah.... about him (again). It's been 2 months, and it hasn't stopped
It's like there's no end of stories about him. Get bored? woah.. try to be me. I've been bored enough to feel this pain
So sorry if you get bored with my story, i just don't know where i should tell all this things.. it hurts so bad


So.... i don't know what to say actually. Essentially, now he's found a new one and finally made his decision
And i don't know what to feel. And i don't know what to do
I don't know what actuallly happened
Cause everythings happened undercontrol, and i just have to accepted no matter what
and it hurts
I just feel so stupid right now
Feel so stupid for keep suffer in the same thing
Feel so stupid for keep crying for the same thing everynight
Feel so stupid for keep remembering the thing that won't happen again
Feel so stupid i keep do all those things, when he's already found someone else
Feel like an idiot and it hurts
Now it made me wonder.. What else will happen tomorrow? How long should i feel this pain?
I'm just afraid of tomorrow, when i have to face things that i never even wanted to know
yeah.. Reality hurts


Yeah..
IT HURTS TOO MUCH.. and now i'm numb