why do you do this to me? please stay awake stay close and don't go

WHY

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Iis harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me...

I should've known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me...


AWAKE

With every appearance by you, blinding my eyes,
I can hardly remember the last time I felt like I do.
You're an angel disguised.

And you're lying real still,
but your heart beat is fast just like mine.
And the movie's long over,
that's three that have passed, one more's fine.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

I'm trying real hard not to shake. I'm biting my tongue,
but I'm feeling alive and with every breathe that I take,
I feel like I've won. You're my key to survival.

And if it's a hero you want,
I can save you. Just stay here.
Your whispers are priceless.
Your breathe, it is dear. So please stay near.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

Say my name. I just want to hear you.
Say my name. So I know it's true.
You're changing me. You're changing me.
You showed me how to live.
So just say. So just say,

That you'll stay awake for me.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything


STAY CLOSE DON'T GO

I'm staring at the glass in front of me,
is it half empty of our wins or have i ruined all you've given me?
I know I've been selfish,
I know I've been foolish,
but look through that
and you will see,
I'll do better, I know,
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
amazed how I somehow managed to
sweep you off your feet girl,
your perfect little feet girl
I took for granted what you do.
But I'll do better, I know
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

And don't you know my heart is open, oh,
it's putting up the fight,
and I've got this feeling,
that everything's alright,
and don't you see,
I'm not the only one for you
but you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight I'll wake up alone,

(stay) If you leave me tonight,
(close) I'll wake up alone,
(don't) don't tell me I will
(go) make it on my own,
(stay) don't leave me tonight,
(close) this heart of stone
(don't) will sing till it dies
(go) nif you leave me tonight.
Don't leave me tonight

gila

heeeyyaaa like i have told you guys before kalo kelas 9 tuh ga enak!! dan ampe sekarang gue masih mikir gitu yaaa okelah banyak yang asik sih tapi tetep aja i miss my 8th grader ga tau kenapa kelas 8 lebih menyenangkan buat gue, hhhhhh akhir akhir ini banyak pikiran yang bikin gue stress sendiri

uououo i don't know what
i don't know how
i don't know why
jeez why is it so complicated for me
why is it so hard to believe
to understand
and to through all of this
all of this fucking things

i wake up in the morning and then it just became so unclear for me
is it only me? or i'm just blinding my self?
the time goes fast and so unpredictable
if i could stop the time so i will make it the best time to kill my self
because right now for me death is better than through all of this things
i dont even know what happened and which way i should pick
because yeaaah it's just too hard and too unclear for me

it was like diving in the lake without any glove or swimsuit
it was like driving a truck without any direction and driving license
it was like doing mathematic homework without any my friend's book
it was like playing guitar without any string

lalalala i don't know what i'm talking about :p


hmmmm yeah

gue ga pernah minta dilahirin, tapi yang gua tau setiap orang dilahirin pasti ada tujuannya dan pasti ada gunanya buat kehidupan di dunia ini

hidup itu seperti roda yang berputar, kadang kita di bawah kadang di atas
saat kita diatas jangan sok, hati hati melangkah jangan sampe jatuh kebawah
saat kita di bawah terus berusaha sekeras mungkin karna pasti ada saatnya kita bakal di atas

hidup itu ada sedih ada senang, ada mudah ada sulit
ya gapapa karena emang itulah hidup, justru kalo kita ga pernah ngerasain sedih kita ga bakal tau apa rasa nya kesenangan sesungguhnya
kalo kita ga pernah ngerasain susahnya hidup maka kita ga pernah ngerasain rasanya lepas dari kesusahan dan menuju kemudahan itu

kita hidup di dunia dengan banyak perbedaan
dan ga mungkin di dunia ada orang yang sama persis
dan justru karna perbedaan itulah yang bikin hidup itu seru
bertaun taun kita hidup di dunia melewati berbagai perbedaan
mencoba saling mengetahui
mencoba saling memahami
dan pada akhirnya saling melengkapi





















hoah bacot ya gue haha


lama lama jadi gila kayak marshanda nih gue.....................-__-

agustus

hoaaaahm udah lama ga ngepost ya gua, yaaa abis nya gue males ol dan males ngetik juga padahal kalo boleh dibilang banyak cerita yang bisa gue ceritain soalnya awal bulan (juli-agustus) di kelas 9 tuh bisa dibilang bulan yang cukup sibuk dan banyak banget yang terjadi hhhhhh i want to tell everything but i can't and i'm kinda lazy to do that hihi, jadi gue masukin foto foto nya aja yaaa

ternyata

hey guys, gua ga mau posting cerita sih cuma mau ngasih tau doang, ternyataaaa something that i just realized bahwaaa berdasarkan blog gua gua udah jadi kayak fans berat nya killms gitu dah -_-
pertama, lagu blog gua Forever-Killing Me Inside, terus kemaren gua ngepost foto bareng Josaphat killms, dan kalo kalian perhatiin foto diatas yang gede itu gua lagi pake baju nya killing me inside

ih wowww

ga sengaja loh

hebat deh kok baru nyadar ya haha ha ha ha

okedeh daa hmmm

lalalalala

saturday 189!

sabtu 1 agustus 2009, gua lomba band gitu di closing nineteen cup di GOR bulungan, dan berhubung gua males cerita, kesimpulan hari itu gua cuma bisa bilang

JOSAPHAAATTT I LOVE YOU!!!

hahahahahha top abis deh killms (y)(y)(y) haahaha :D












terus malemnya gua ke rumah nya Niko deh soalnya dia ulang taun, terus kita makan makan hihi enak loh nik makasih yaa

yaudah begitulah my last saturday hoho daa